Is there life after The Bottom Line (TBL)?

As I sit here pondering whether there is actually life after what I thought would be my career until I retired, I seriously have to wonder. I wonder about a few things. I wonder why the bottom line has the power to destroy lives. I wonder why I would have spent so many years believing people actually gave a shit about anything BUT TBL. I guess it is inherent in all of us to hold some sort of hope that what we do at work makes a difference and can be valued for what it is. I wonder why people feel the need to manipulate the system to swing the pendulum in their favor, while taking out good people in the process. I wonder why those types of people are rewarded while others are destroyed in the process. I wonder how long it will take for karma to catch up with them. I wonder if everything I did was for nothing. I wonder why the hell I worry about it at all.

I hear on a daily basis that "Everything will be fine", "Something better will come along", "Better days are ahead" etc... I tend to believe it. I need to believe it. I am not an old man, by any means. Yes, I spent many years doing my job, but I believe there is a reason none of that exists any longer.

I know there is a job out there that will encompass my true passions, and will allow me to actually want to get up in the morning and go to work. My artwork, my creativity and the passion that lies with, will be my saving grace. It may be teaching others how to pull from their hearts and souls to visualize who they really are. It may be something else. I do know, however, it will happen soon, and the only way it was able to happen is for me to be broken. The feeling of hopelessness is a scary one, but it is one that will fade away. It will fade away when I am once again given the chance to shine. I need ONE person to believe in what I can do ad give me the chance to do it. It has happened before. It will happen again.

So, as far as TBL. Well, you can go jump off a ledge, because you will lead to nothing but the demise of yourself.